Poetic Reassurance

There are times when a person can't allow themselves to worry about what other people think. God has put me here for a reason, one far bigger than any person could possibly fathom.  So don't be surprised if I don't care that people might think it's odd how I just appeared in this town. That's how God does it. He's not limited to our small minded logic or perspective. Trust me, there are plenty of times in my day where I question what the big plan is.  But the one thing I do know is God has it under control and I don't doubt for one minute that everything is just as it should be.

Our church's Bible Ed group for the "twenty-somethings" decided to continue our group through the summer despite the fact the church takes a break from having it during the summer. Our discussion is always helpful in getting the sermon to sink in further and allows for questions to be asked. So I pushed for the group to continue. As we continued to meet and after some time, the pastor asked me to lead the group into the fall. My own mind went soaring into circles. I'm not the most qualified! I'm not the one people would have chosen! Ironically, the sermon that weekend ended with the quote "God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called." There's something poetic and beautiful when God has your questions and insecurities already answered. He knew exactly how I was going to feel after asked about Bible Ed and He had planted the answer to my fear already. It might of been the shortest panic episode I've ever encountered. It was like an instant reassurance from God, "Breathe, calm... I've got this and I will be here with you  through this."

From time to time I think about how people must think it is the dumbest decision to have me of all people put in a lead position in that group. I'm aware of how it must seem like the most irrational decision. The facts are clear that it seems completely bizarre. I'm not the oldest in the group.  I'm one of the newest in coming back to Christ. I'm not the most knowledgeable.  But it's when those thoughts enter my mind that I choose to look at God and He restores my confidence in His plan.  So I'm going to just relax and simply say, "Where you go God, I will follow."